No I Don't Feel Better

When someone you love dies people often say "You should feel better knowing he or she is with the Lord now."

Umm....No I don't feel better!

I am human and I want my beloved with me!  I want to tell him I love him!  I want to see him smile and force a hug upon me.  I don't know if I will ever be that sanctified, holy, and filled with Christ that I do not grieve.  Quite frankly I don't know if I ever want to feel that way.  Grieving a person is not only normal, but it is necessary.  Why wouldn't you want to miss someone you loved dearly?  

Maybe it's just me....

I understand the person who says these words means no harm by them which is why I do not yell obscenities back at him or her.  Instead I merely say them in my head.

That's another thing.....do the stages of grief go in order?  I have truly mastered the anger stage.

I don't even know if I am making sense.  I just had to say these things out loud.