Mother's Day

Dear Gerard,

Mother's Day is approaching and I have been dreading it since your funeral.  I didn't want your mom to be without you on Mother's Day.  You were her world.  I wish heaven had visiting hours.  I'd sell everything to give her one more hour with you.  It would be money well spent.  We will have a family gathering and I will do my best to get her to come over.  For the first time no one will be asking me where you are.  Wow!  Another stupid thing I miss about you.  Anytime I was around classmates or family everyone would ask me where you were.  I would sometime ask if I am your keeper.  I wish I was still your keeper.

I am giggling because you brought the beer to our last family reunion and Cory asked for Mike's Hard Lemonade (by mistake so he said).  You fussed so on the phone because you didn't want anyone to see you buying that "fake beer" as you called it.  Then when you arrived you demanded Cory drink the entire case since he embarrassed you by asking for it. LOL.

I've been trying to think of what you would buy Geri (as you called her when you was made at her) for Mother's Day.  I would love to surprise her with something.  If you can help me out by sending me a sign I really would appreciate it.

Before you passed you took her shopping.  Perhaps unconsciously you was giving her her gift early.  I doubt anything I could give her would compare to the last thing you gave her.  Still I would like to try.  I feel so compelled to try.  I am hoping to see Maya and Daniel this weekend as well.  

I miss you.  We all miss you.

Mother's Day you would have called me to tell me that I had to be at church because Granny wanted us to go.  Which really meant you volunteered me to go with y'all.  You always did what Granny wanted.  Stupid little brown noser. LOL.

Loving you and missing you every second.  Look at that you got something you loved, my undivided attention.

Blowing kisses to the sky.

#ForeverGerard